I cried when I heard the news.
It arrived, like most of what I consume in the moment: via Twitter. After I finished saying aloud "No!" I turned to Google. There were no new results in the News tab and I hoped against hope that someone had jumped the gun and gotten things mixed up.
But then I saw the Turner statement spreading. Craig Sager had, in fact, died.
Tears sprang to my eyes for although I had only officially met Mr. Sager once, I have some sense of the pain his family feels now.
The need to reshape how you view yourself and your family around the hole where your father used to be.
The guilt-inducing relief that sometimes comes upon realizing that the most awful roller coaster ride of your life is over.
The loss of a parent changes you. One day, I had a dad, the next he only lived on in my memories. Suddenly, I became attuned to loss all around me in a way I simply wasn't equipped to before.
I know now that my life tomorrow may not be as simple as it is today, and as a result, I strive to remain grateful on a daily basis, and to share what I have learned through these hard times in hopes of helping others.